SEBUAH KISAH UNTUK MASA DEPAN

It’s 4:15a.m. in the morning. All of sudden my eyes were wide open and I could not sleep anymore. So I woke up and walked to the window. The sky outside was still dark. Taking a peek at the open sky, I saw nothing but emptiness. Where did the moon go? Where did the stars hide? I could not find them. Nothing to light up but the streetlights. I heard the sound of the blowing wind. After awhile, there was just stillness. Quiet and cold. But it was not long as the crickets started to sing to break the silence.I stood still by the window. Lost in the transition of moments between oblivion and consciousness. Between dreams and reality. It was the alarm clock bringing me back to the real world. It’s already 5.00a.m. That’s the time I was supposed to wake up for subuh. I walked to the shower and cleansed myself. A cold morning shower made every part of my body alert and fresh and also quivering. I took my towel to dry myself. Then, I took an ablution just before I went out from the shower room.Minutes later, after putting on a shirt and pants, I performed my morning prayer. All of sudden I felt myself so weak and helpless before Him. Just after my morning prayer, I sat on the prayer mat while praying to Him. Lately, I really felt like I was so far away from Him. I didn’t know why (which actually i know). I just felt so. After divulging about myself, I also prayed for my parents and my family. I also prayed for my late grandfathers and my late grandma. I also prayed for those people who helped me especially those who helpd me when i was in secondary school, Universiti Malaya, sarawak and those around me at the moment. I also prayed for my loved ones – whoever and wherever they are.

Soon after that, I just got myself ready to leave the house. I prayed to God to bring me out of this darkest moment and show me light beyond the rain just simply like before or better than that. And I strongly believe that fine day will soon come my way. Insya’allah… it will soon come… Amin.....